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*** Reflections ***
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Nov 07
All there is...
Reflecting back on the way i lived the majority of my life
it surprised me to discover
how much time and how much of myself
i invested due to misguided attitudes
in nurturing and feeding negative thoughts and feelings
and reinforcing them with the repetition of their patterns.
I used to believe i was a prisoner of prevailing circumstances
which prevented me from living the happy life
i had always believed in and aspired to.
Neither the passing over of both my parents
nor the "ticking" of my own life's clock
helped to shake me out of this,
until a sudden involuntary realisation
which struck me like lightning right through to the core
"This is it!... this is All there is, there is nothing else!..."
Ironically, the view of the End and of the Nothing
instead of bringing any expected feelings of doom
it opened up the Door to a New Beginning.
Suddenly the "chains" broke and fell off
Setting me Free as never before.
I still have the bruises they have caused me over the years
and still have to learn to walk without their weight
and although i still don't know which direction i should take next
there is an important thing i Do know
and that is
that i am free to choose and forge my own path.
Orion
